This Crazy Ride Part 2!

So we reached a point where no one could touch us and then we hit a low that I could have never seen. What just happened? Is this a dream? So I stopped us only to wait for the future not because feelings had changed but more because the timing wasn't right. But then....You... did something that the man I thought I knew would never do. You have hurt me in a way I am not sure how to cope with. But yet I lay in my bed arguing with my thoughts and my heart. Because even through the thing you did to hurt me my heart still seems to want to love you... And as much as I wish I never met you. There still is no one like you... Wow... My best friend that is what you were to me.... Now we have been ordered not to talk... And when I do see you I try to not look you in the eyes... But I cant help it and I see you only wish things went different or that you could just say something. But when you look back into my eye you see the hurt and betrayal that you have caused. I want to close the book but it seems to have iron pages that refuse to turn... So I guess this means....


To be continued........

World Wind

Life is so crazy it's one thing after another. Cant seem to get my head straight. Don't know who to trust. I feel betrayed by the one I trusted the most. Feel abandoned by the one I love the most. But yet I have to wake up and walk around as if my life is fine. Wear a smile on my face although inside I am crying. How did I get here? How did I F**k up this bad? Why does the things that I know I deserve become not tangible? I'm sitting here with my insides ripped up. But tomorrow again I have to get up and wear a smile like it's all okay. Like I tell people if you only knew my story and all that I have been through. But I have nothing more than my faith that it will all get better. I hope sooner than later but God please just let the better come. I am at my lowest of lows and the ones I should be able to count on now are not there in the ways I need them to be. But in the end there is God and yet he has never failed me. When I think HE has forgotten me HE will step in right when I am ready to tap out!!! Well God I'm almost to that point so please hear my cry....