Over and over

So meant to be but just wont be... We fight against what is right... I don't know why but we do or maybe we are just two fools... In love is what we are and what we will be, we even considered starting a family! But the devil continues to come in and drive us apart and we allow this to happen :( We break up, we get back together, we break up, we get back together... Countless times I cant even imagine... When do we give up... I'm tired and I know you are too! Maybe there just shouldn't be a me and you.... I think I am at the point I love you enough to let you go... If you are to find happiness out there I don't know... But if you ask you shall receive but then you stop and think about it... There is no you without me! So I am sure this foolish circle will continue until the lead in the pencil breaks then we may just separate!

How do you see me???

When you look at me what do you see??? I think I am a strong black woman... Hard on the outside but so soft on the inside... Yeah I walk and talk like don't nothing bother me... But I have a heart too... My hair... I wear it how I feel... It changes one style is to boring for me cut it, grow it, dye it who cares that is how I express my flare... Keep my baby hairs styled just right on my forhead which I dont consider big... Down to my slim nose which is just right for my face... When I smile my cheack bones pop out but in a cute way with a faint dimple on each side... My lips...Oh my lips sexy and full and soft to the touch! The shape of my body just right for my frame not small, not big, but just right... How do you see me?

New Experience!!!

I have given you so many new experiences.... You will never forget me... So when she tries it... Ha! Nope I did it first tell her try the next thing... Nope I did that too... I am the best and none can be better... But I can't stop them from trying!!! Oh shit you remember.... Yeap! Constantly I am in your head... That song that is playing in the background... Awww does it make you think of me!!! Damn don't blame her cause she don't do it like I do can't ride it like I do... You thought you could find another me... Naw babe your boys lied... I told you to listen to me.... But now you sit and stare and can't get me out your head... Where are your boys now... Those hoes yea they only wanted one thing... Don't come home from work early cause she is now with your boy... I know I know with me you didn't have to worry about that... Again a new experience... I will always be the first and the last remember that!

You're the One

This song says it all... I never thought someone could just be your everything... But now I believe that it's possible... What is not perfect for one person is perfect to someone else... The thing is when you find this it may just be smart to hold on to it because you just don't find Mrs. or Mr. right every day! When you find the one you  will know... Your heart, body, and mind will confirm the feeling for you ;)

New New!

I open my eyes and see more clear... I stop talking and listen to the sounds that I once wasn't able to hear... A new beginning..... A changed me.... I will look forward and learn from what I used to be.... I smile because I make myself happy.... No need to wait for complements or approval because these things I am now sure of for myself.... This is a crazy world that we are in.... But I will make the best of it and aim to win.... No more holding me down, no more me wearing a frown, no more you getting under my skin... I am here now and I am ready to win!!!

Sleepless

Sleepless night... What to do... I don't know is this because of you... Well that means you are still a part of me and I have not yet let go... But at this point I wont let my feelings show.... This is now a turning point in life and yet I stand here not knowing which turn to make... How I hope this time I make the right decision for my own sake... My feelings are all over the place... I cant figure anything out... At some points I want to shout... But that wont help so I begin to cry as I look at myself in the mirror and ask myself why??? Its because I love you more than life itself, more than a trophy on my shelf... Without you I feel like I'm not me and me loving you is how it should be... So I will walk this walk day by day and hope one day to hear you say __________.....

On to the Next One

You are funny.... A lost... Never... Am I cocky well maybe when it comes to this.... I wont trash you... My momma told me if I don't have nothing nice to say don't say anything... Dang.... Well lets just say I had fun and it was out of my box... Now that it's over I will walk away okay... Do you boo... Enjoy your life.... You only have one... But what we had could never be fixed so hell lets stop trying... So friends???? Agreed.... I can be that.... So yes now I am on to the next... Lets close that drama book and try a new one.... On to the next one.....LOL....