This Crazy Ride Part 2!

So we reached a point where no one could touch us and then we hit a low that I could have never seen. What just happened? Is this a dream? So I stopped us only to wait for the future not because feelings had changed but more because the timing wasn't right. But then....You... did something that the man I thought I knew would never do. You have hurt me in a way I am not sure how to cope with. But yet I lay in my bed arguing with my thoughts and my heart. Because even through the thing you did to hurt me my heart still seems to want to love you... And as much as I wish I never met you. There still is no one like you... Wow... My best friend that is what you were to me.... Now we have been ordered not to talk... And when I do see you I try to not look you in the eyes... But I cant help it and I see you only wish things went different or that you could just say something. But when you look back into my eye you see the hurt and betrayal that you have caused. I want to close the book but it seems to have iron pages that refuse to turn... So I guess this means....


To be continued........

World Wind

Life is so crazy it's one thing after another. Cant seem to get my head straight. Don't know who to trust. I feel betrayed by the one I trusted the most. Feel abandoned by the one I love the most. But yet I have to wake up and walk around as if my life is fine. Wear a smile on my face although inside I am crying. How did I get here? How did I F**k up this bad? Why does the things that I know I deserve become not tangible? I'm sitting here with my insides ripped up. But tomorrow again I have to get up and wear a smile like it's all okay. Like I tell people if you only knew my story and all that I have been through. But I have nothing more than my faith that it will all get better. I hope sooner than later but God please just let the better come. I am at my lowest of lows and the ones I should be able to count on now are not there in the ways I need them to be. But in the end there is God and yet he has never failed me. When I think HE has forgotten me HE will step in right when I am ready to tap out!!! Well God I'm almost to that point so please hear my cry....

Let Me Go

You have done your damage... You have said what you needed to say... I have honestly listen but I have no words to say... But I need you to move on and leave me behind... Because if you love me like you say I am asking you give me this one thing.... Give me a chance to enjoy my life.... Let me have the thing I would never have with you.... Please just let me go and I am hoping the best for you... I say nothing to you because I have no nice words at all.... I don't look at you because I don't want to see you fall.... All I am asking is please Let Me Go!

Pushing

You keep pushing and pushing and I am trying to hold on. You are pushing and pushing I am trying to stay strong... I am try to have tunnel vision trying to keep my eye on the prize... But as I have said you keep pushing and pushing me... Just waiting for me to explode waiting till  I say I cant take this anymore.... But if you keep pushing I will be gone and you will have no one to push....

You Are!

Without you I am not a complete me... Without you my heart doesn't beat the same... I light up when I see your face... My day goes so much better when you are a part of it... For so long we never fought... (But as they say everyone needs to argue time to time) And that day came.... But surprisingly it wasn't like a argument that I had with anyone else... We solved this thing that seemed to be a big issue at the time... Then we smile and continue to love each other... And the nights that I refuse to talk anymore and we go to sleep angry we don't sleep well and in the morning its a great effort to make it right again.... To lose you seems to be not an option... How can I continue when I have found that one in this great big world... But know that I chose you... Because everything the next guy isn't you are! So in the end I know that you are the one for me...

Unborn

A woman is who brought you into this word... A woman stretched out her body to allow you to grow inside her... Then she went through a pain greater then none other to bring you into this world. So if your mother is still alive make sure she knows that you love her...

The feeling a mother gets when she feels her child's first kick, when she has her ultrasounds... Priceless!!!

But sometime a woman is put in a predicament where that unborn child is just not a good edition to her life... No it shouldn't be that way... Like "oh I am to busy to have a child right now" or "I am not in a place to raise a child"... But yet woman every day make this HARD decision....

So that woman will not feel those kicks or have her belly stretch, or the morning sickness.... But know a woman with a heart will feel the pain of losing her child...

(Tears........) But don't judge because you don't know her story!

This Crazy Ride

When I go to sleep you are in my head. When I am sleeping I dream about you. When I wake up you are yet still on my mind. I am tired of running from my feelings trying to shut them out... Now I will go with the flow...Take this ride... It feels right so what can go wrong... I have never been so sure until now...

Well lets see where I end up.... To Be Continued.....